Saif

fizajihan asked: saif! you don't know me (i'm feeza jihan haha) but you were featured in the AKF newsletter - mentioned your twitter, found your tumblr from there. just wanted to say that the work you're doing is awesome :) i'll be at the walk tomorrow, just for a little bit, but i'll hopefully be able to at least make a donation to your guys' youth in action team. hope we get the opportunity to connect tomorrow! mad love and respect!

Awww that’s so sweet! I really appreciate the support! We all can do something and this is my something to make a positive difference :D Once again thanks so much :D

My life is in a turmoil. Nothing makes sense anymore, up isn’t up down isn’t down. So I have this friend who I consider a brother more than anything…MY BESTESTEST Friend…who thinks of me as a ‘friend’ not a ‘best friend’ cause thats someone else but another one of his ‘best friends’…so technically I’ve been demoted. Next, I tell him everything about everything…other than my social security number he knows everything about me. Yet I have to find out stuff about him from three different people and still not know the details. Like I tell him if I sneeze and he doesn’t tell me he likes someone?! I admit that I am a clingy, mean, sarcastic, self-absorbed, irritating person but I am also loyal, trustworthy, caring, emotional, someone you can tell anything without any hesitations. I would never do anything to hurt you intentionally. Sure, I make mistakes, but I man up and admit them, but this time I AM NOT WRONG. Anytime we stop talking its cause I over-think something and act like a drama queen, but this time I WASN’T EVEN HERE! HOW DID I SCREW UP?! What have I done that you don’t respond to my emails, texts, phone-calls, anything? You talk to everyone except me…and you expect me to just sit there? YOU ARE WORTH THE FIGHT cause you are special and caring and always there for me…but I don’t know what I’ve done so I don’t know how to apologize…what should I do? It’s been more than a week! The longest we haven’t talked before has been three days TOPS! I’m worried… have I done something to lose that one constant thing thats always been there in my life? What should I do?